This post is drastically different from my last posted on June 2nd. I painted a serendipitous picture of me and the man that I love, key words- MAN I LOVE.
This went really well for the first 2 weeks he was gone. He sent me nice texts, checked in with me every morning, called and told me he missed me daily. Now we fight all the time and I am starting to think its because he is talking to another woman... I know it might sound like I'm jumping to conclusions but there are several hints leading me to believe this.
hint#1- he doesnt contact me as much.
hint#2- doesnt ask for pictures anymore
hint#3- he isnt nice to me anymore
BIGGEST HINT- I got a text message from him the other night, out of the blue, saying "slap your tight little ass" than "and lick your tight little pussy"
correct me if I'm wrong but those sound like a response to a text. So I called him and he said that he just felt like saying that to me. Either he is a really bad liar or doesnt know how to form a sentence. Usually you started out with pronoun like "I" maybe follow it up with a "want", hell maybe through a "to" in there to make it a complete sentence.
Ok, so now that I've set up background story I can tell you what I have done.
I slept with someone else. I did it despite alaska ass hole and it also prove to myself that I can, indeed, sleep with someone else besides him. I feel like if he is sex texting another woman than surely I can get on someone else. I know this sounds like I'm in kindergarden and some kid pushed me off my swing so I find it ok to wipe my boogers on his desk top but I just cant be mad a fool out of this relationship. It has happened to me too many times to count!
The realistic thing to do is just stop this fantasy I have in my head about him and what will happen. I dont want to go see him anymore and I just dont want to talk to him.
I am one messed up individual.
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